Oh, doesn’t that sound lovely. Good Christians have faith, hold on, believe, trust in our Lord. Or so we’re told. But life can be tough and sometimes faith isn’t that easy to grab onto.
Over the years, I’ve discovered that wavering, doubting, and even arguing with God isn’t unchristian, but simply human and something God appreciates from us. See, God wants to hear from us, even in our most imperfect, fragile state.
Years ago I faced a serious surgery and I was scared. I had never had surgery, and the thought of facial paralysis and total deafness in one ear, was frightening to me. I was terrified and yes, angry with God. My child-like faith had always counted on God to protect me, act as defense against all sorts of dangers. In that fog of fear and anger, God felt far from me; I could barely see, feel or hear him.
And then one night, I let God have it. I blasted him with my anger and fear. I told God how betrayed I felt. He was my faithful shepherd, after all. But through that long night I began to feel God’s presence, like a distant light, shining through the fog of my fragile faith.
Join us for midweek Lenten supper and worship on Wednesday. Soup supper at 6:15 and worship at 7. This week, we will encounter a reflection by Mrs. Noah on her Flood experiences. Then, join us for the Second Sunday in Lent at 8:30 and 11. Full calendar is available at http://www.allsaintspalatine.org
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